But the best in a long while
What I remember most of the last weekend now, is how Ive been scared. Not scared of the dark, afraid of killers, scared to go outside alone, but scared of what might happen in the future. It wasnt a bad way to be scared, it was kind of nice, and it was a mixed feeling, because I was scared because I was certain I would get some responsibility I myself could not handle, but at the same time I was certain I would get the help I needed. The responcebility included my worst nightmare, speaking in front of people, and Im not talking about 10 - 20, but a lot of people, with everyone focused at me. I know there is only one way I could do something like that, because I do not have the strenght to do that alone. On my own I get scared, shaky, I get lost in my sentences and my voice gets shaky. My dreams and thoughts scare me, but I hope thats the way it will be, my goal is to see someone be saved, does not have to be hundreds, though I hope it will, Il be happy for every one.